[[怡怡的部落格]]: Have a memories with him....

Just now chit chat with Sammi(Mei)…really long time never chat with her even a message.
She ask me 'why u look sad'...coz of working at here feel stress n pressure lorhh!

Suddenly, she ask 'you bf leh?'...Oops~~ my bf? he's went to N.Z already.....

Don’t know why.. i so miss him suddenly coz of mei pick up him?

I really MISS HIM...

is he make me grow up last time,

he want me go to KL working,

want me to be independent,

Last time i really hate him.. hate him force me do the things i don’t like. bcoz tat time

i really cant stay alone,

can’t no one accompany,

hate to walk n by LRT go to work (tat time he need to outstation 3-4times once a week)

teach me a lot,

wan me to learn more,

make me more mature.

Pay me money and every sunday fetch me go to learn a small beauty course...

I still remember to be graduate tat day have a make up competition, only he and my 3rd sister(coz she's my model) is my supporter, my mood damn down on tat time coz all ppl have parents come over to support them but i only have 2 ppl.

While award tat time..3rd prize is XXX(still rmb is a gal),2nd prize is XXX.....hmmm...don’t have my name, so sad i lose already...they also thought me lose already...the 1st prize is...sorry is not a guy(all ppl tot is a guy will get it)is..no.19...

Oops~~~is me!! we look toward each other...he's so surprise, me too..

walk 2gether and hold my sister hand to the stage...want me to talk out wat i feel now...haha~ i only have 2 supporter sure is thanks for them lor n my teacher also. feel so funny tat time coz I’m blur to talk.

After that he find a beautician job for me...at pj(True Spa)that time is good coz i everyday drive his car went to work,

but his car crash already coz of me. he's nt even angry, just care of me while came back from outstation.if for others guy maybe will scold me already.. but he's NOT.

Then after few month he went to N.Z, leave me alone at there...that time i was hurt, totally change...go club, smoke, everyday after finish work wont stay at home coz i scare alone....just hang out with frenz....then we break off.. coz he say i have another guy already...just break, i just wan to be bad tat time...

coz of him, i became a bad ppl. i wont really like on someone on tat time...the guys who're know me on tat time, they will know coz i wont pay attention for them. even the ppl i like tat time is sam n kit, i also never care bout them.(so sorry)

Until after March'08,only i change abit... with kit.. bt tat time he not so care about me coz he was fear.. until after April(is a bad period for me, still will think of 'it')

But now.. already 1yr plus break with tat N.Z ex, still have contact with him. actually within this 1yr, he gt asked me compound with him but i know i cant accept him even i still love on him, coz i have a bad secret that i know he cant forgive me if him know. but luckily we still is frenz, he still care on me, still protect me no matter wat happended, anytime and anywhere...
So sorry for him...

this is the pillow case,i done it for him b4 he went to N.Z

The letter/note i wrote for him 2gether with the pillow case tat nite b4 he went to N.Z

The time nearby he went to N.Z,still have few month.

The memories with him...today just get it(all the pic at his phone coz i don't have so he send for me)